Sometimes pictures of you pop up on my Facebook. You really do know too many of the people that I know. You always look so happy and she’s just as happy right by your side. Everything that you guys do together reminds me of the way we were. I hate that you still look like the same boy that I cared so deeply for all those years ago. It makes it hard to stop caring when you still look like the same boy I would wake up next too, the same boy that would kiss me on my forehead, the same boy that would make me breakfast and tell me that he will always be there for me. But I guess the hardest part is that even though you cheated on me and cut me off from your life, you are still the only guy that really treated me right. I don’t want you back, but I want someone that genuinely cares about me the way you did. You always just made everything better. So at the end of 3 years passing me by, the worst part is not finding someone new.
It just feels a little unfair that I’m the one that had their heart stomped on and you’re the one that gets to be endlessly happy. I want you to be happy but I wish I was happy too.
And there is no reason for me to every say these words to you. It’s not your fault. You just found someone that is right for you. I guess these words are really for God. I’m just praying for something good. I know it sounds like I’m complaining god, but I’m really just looking for you to give me a little sign of love so I have a bit of hope to hang by.