Praying for Chris
I felt a haunting loneliness sometimes, and felt it in others—young clerks...– The Great Gatsby by Francis Scott Key Fitzgerald.
Life, with its rules, its obligations, and its freedoms, is like a sonnet:...– Madeleine L’Engle, A Wrinkle in Time (via daisydandelions)
Mamihlapinatapai: is a word from the Yaghan language of Tierra del Fuego, listed...
you know how people say they don’t care about what other people think?...– jan
I’m going to electric daisy!!!! whooo! Gotta finish my student teaching portfolio and get my lesson plans done. Going to a Prada party at the met museum on Tuesday. Life is really headed my way but I wish I was spending more time with you. I wish I could tell you that I miss you. You hit me up the other day and said that we should hang out. I said “aw, sure”. Yea, I guess...
May 11, 2012
It is May 11, 2012. I just woke up from a dream by bursting out in tears. I reached up and felt them went on my cheeks and I felt my heart shaking. It started off at Fahima’s house. I was helping her sister put on a sari. (I have no clue how to put one on but in the dream I did). Her sis and mother was were making were talking to be like usual. I ended up as an audience member at a talk...
When my best friend complains about not looking...
butitsonsale: I’m like…
when it's late and i set my alarm
butitsonsale: I realize that the alarm is set for only 3 hours in the future,
in high school when i would come home from a party
butitsonsale: Trying to sneak in: My parents catch me so I try to act normal: Eventually I’m just like:
Dear Old Love, I sometimes look at pictures that I took of us years ago. I...
There is always something ridiculous about the emotions of people whom one has...– Oscar Wilde
Jan was back in the game! Pure, raw, explosive pleasure! Better than drugs,...
I Really Miss High School Jan
I just had a conversation with an old friend from hs that I haven't talked to in 4 years. In his mind I still exist as the 17 year old Jan. I really have forgotten who I am. I forgot what it's like to walk down the hall way and have boys swoon. I forgot what its like to feel sexy and be unattainable. I forgot what it's like to not have a broken heart. Somewhere in between my heart getting crush and all the work I forgot who I am. I'M THE SWEET PRETTY FUNNY POPULAR GIRL! It really meant a lot to hear his kind words and have him remind me of the shadows of who I am.
Inder: ur not crazy ur da efffffing bomb
tell that to the guys that cheat one me
and reject me
Inder: no way
theyre fucking idiots
have no idea wat they got
Inder: man you were the prettiest girl in highschool
Inder: wat kind of idiots did u start hanging out with?
Inder: ughhhh all the beautiful girls meet retards
Jan: no ones betters come around
i really miss hs me
i dont feel sexy anymore
i got crushed
u dont feel sexy anymore? r u kidddding
ur the girl who wud get up in class n all eyes wud b on ur bum
ud walk in n wed follow it till u sat down
i dont think that happens anymore
its like the min i like someone back
they dont like me anymore
Inder: im sorry its the way it is
i really am
i never imagined it this way for you
i honestly thought u wud always get wat u want
n u wud have alredy found that perfect guy
the pretty girls always get snatched up first
and then pretty AND fun to be around?
you shudnt be single for a SECOND
Jan: u saying these things reminds me that I really have forgotten who i am
It’s my first day in the department of education system (teachnyc) and I already recieved a call from a principal that is interested in hiring me!
Six seconds passed, and then he growled, “No, but what you respond to in any...– Kurt Vonnegut, from A Man Without a Country (thanks, flowerpickingrobot)
I think one of the reasons I didn’t go into business is because I knew that selfishness is part of the game. In teaching there is no cheating, no easy way. I come in everyday, I share knowledge and get paid for my time. There is no lying to anyone or stabbing anyone to get ahead.